I'm just tired of being tired. I want so badly to be open with my
emotions, but I can't. I have to keep everything in because I'm so
scared of getting hurt. There are so many things I wish to say. So many
things I wish to do, but I have to keep them between myself and this
blog. And that just fucking sucks sometimes.
I want to love freely and fully. I'm tired of holding back all my feelings because I'm scared of getting hurt. It's just the things you say sometimes... makes it feel as if you'd leave me for someone better at the drop of a dime or that you'd cheat on me with anyone should the opportunity arise. That's the only thing that keeps me from putting myself fully into this relationship, as badly as I want to. You're perfect. You're everything I ever wanted. I'm just so scared of losing you to someone else. Someone much better than me. and I don't want to either.
I'm just scared out of my mind because I love you just that much.
And I wish I could tell you all this, but I'm scared.
Fuck..
I want to love freely and fully. I'm tired of holding back all my feelings because I'm scared of getting hurt. It's just the things you say sometimes... makes it feel as if you'd leave me for someone better at the drop of a dime or that you'd cheat on me with anyone should the opportunity arise. That's the only thing that keeps me from putting myself fully into this relationship, as badly as I want to. You're perfect. You're everything I ever wanted. I'm just so scared of losing you to someone else. Someone much better than me. and I don't want to either.
I'm just scared out of my mind because I love you just that much.
And I wish I could tell you all this, but I'm scared.
Fuck..
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