Dear-,
Are you trying to make up for what you've done?
The best thing you can do for me at the moment... is to leave me be.
It hurts more to see you talking about what really went through your mind, what really could have been back then.
God damnit. I moved on already. I'm done with that part of my life. I'm done with that heartbreak.
It hurts to hear that you told me that you didn't love me... when in reality, you did.
So I went through all that bullshit for no reason. I cried all those fucking tears for no reason. You broke my heart for no reason. And at the same time, you broke your own fucking heart as well.
All of this could have been avoided. But what's done is done. There's no turning back.
My heart belongs to someone else now... someone imperfect, but someone who took the time to win my heart... someone I didn't have to grovel for their attention and love. Someone whose feelings I returned.
I don't want to hear that now. It's too late. It's too late for that sort of fuckery.
I want to live here and now, not there and then.
My heart isn't confused... it's just... full of pent up rage at the moment.
But at the moment... it seems as if you're the only one who cares. The one who cares enough to check up on me... text me... The one who wants to and makes every effort to spend time with me even though I'm so far away... you understand my loneliness. And for that I am grateful... but that's about as far as I can let you enter my heart. I can't waver now. You're just a part of my past. I can never revisit those emotions.
I don't want....
I just want to sleep..... forever.
-ht
Are you trying to make up for what you've done?
The best thing you can do for me at the moment... is to leave me be.
It hurts more to see you talking about what really went through your mind, what really could have been back then.
God damnit. I moved on already. I'm done with that part of my life. I'm done with that heartbreak.
It hurts to hear that you told me that you didn't love me... when in reality, you did.
So I went through all that bullshit for no reason. I cried all those fucking tears for no reason. You broke my heart for no reason. And at the same time, you broke your own fucking heart as well.
All of this could have been avoided. But what's done is done. There's no turning back.
My heart belongs to someone else now... someone imperfect, but someone who took the time to win my heart... someone I didn't have to grovel for their attention and love. Someone whose feelings I returned.
I don't want to hear that now. It's too late. It's too late for that sort of fuckery.
I want to live here and now, not there and then.
My heart isn't confused... it's just... full of pent up rage at the moment.
But at the moment... it seems as if you're the only one who cares. The one who cares enough to check up on me... text me... The one who wants to and makes every effort to spend time with me even though I'm so far away... you understand my loneliness. And for that I am grateful... but that's about as far as I can let you enter my heart. I can't waver now. You're just a part of my past. I can never revisit those emotions.
I don't want....
I just want to sleep..... forever.
-ht
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