#13

Dear--,

I'm trying to move on and let go, but you're making this ever so difficult.

You kill me with your every word.

Stop sending me mixed signals; that's the crux of my suffering. I don't know what you want from me anymore... do you want me to forget you and keep going or do you want me to remain by your side? Tell me because that will be the death of me, mon cher. You keep pushing me away and pulling me back. I'm human too. I have emotions as well. I am not a toy that you play with when you want and toss away when it bores you.

Blood runs through me, not cyanide. I have a heart... I'm subject to pain as well. Please understand that.

-ht.