I want to give up so badly. One deep cut to end it all... how simple is that?

Compared to fighting this pain. These nightmares.

But I can't. I need to be here so I can protect your smile. So I can protect your heart.

As much as I hate what I am... as much as I wish to destroy myself.

Fuck my life. Fuck these goddamn nightmares. Fuck these memories.

I don't want to remember anything. I just want to build a future where I'm free of that shit.