The future.. hm?

I never really put much thought into stuff like that. It was just nonsense.


A future of my choosing and not according to pointless program that I had gotten myself into.


Free will, hm?


I was ready to die in my line of work and that was it for me.

I'd live alone, eat alone, complete the assignments at work, and ride it out on my own until my life ended.

And now, I just don't know anymore... there's too many things to consider and think about.

To have people be affected by my decisions... to have them that attached and connected to me...

That's something I've never had to deal with before. My actions were detached from everyone else but myself. And even then, I felt no connection to myself... the decisions I've made and the things I've done in the past.

And now I have to think twice before I do anything... because I'm connected to people. Because of my emotional attachments.

I'm not alone anymore. 


Why...... Who I was five years ago would've never imagined I'd become who I am at this moment.



I was alone. I had no social network.. no one to give a shit about what I did. And so that was why I sold myself to that program.


It gave me a reason for my existence. If I were to throw life away, then I might as well put it to use in the service of something better.



I need to recalculate myself again.

Logistics again. Heh. I was made for this line of work... even in my own personal life.