You never loved her. You don't hurt the people you love.

Oh, can't you see how much pain you're causing her?

In a different life, in a different time, I would've saved her from you.

Just because you can't get who you want, it doesn't give you any justification to carelessly destroy hearts.

It won't change anything. Your stubbornness and selfishness is what's keeping you from changing.

You're destroying yourself while taking other people down with you and you damn well know it.

It's not that you don't know how to cherish people. It's just that you become too attached to someone you know that can't return your feelings and then you do all these stupid things to try to force that person to do so.

But you know it'll never work... and yet you still do it.

I'm glad you aren't like me though... who I used to be.

I was scared to be attached, afraid to cherish people because I was scared of losing them.

So I distanced myself. I loved physically. I indulged in the pleasure of pleasure and that was all. There was no emotion. I was so empty.

I searched for love in all the wrong places. I was used... and I didn't mind one bit.

All I wanted... was to be wanted. Even if it only mean one night. Even if it meant I was passed around like some classless whore.

I was wanted for the way I dressed, the way I wore my make up, my body... but never for who I was.

And stupidly, I was fine with that... because I've become so numb to it all. Because I blinded by my desire to be accepted and wanted. I did what I did for all the wrong reasons.

I felt like shit. I wanted to cut away at myself, so I'd bleed away my filth. I'd cut and cut, but I'd still feel dirty.

Even now, I still do. I don't ever believe I'll be free of the things I've done in the past.

I'm still trying so hard to clean up my act... because I wish to kill that promiscuous side of me.

I don't want to be that loose girl that I was, taking on anything that moved.

I want to be able to love someone without holding back anything... somehow some way.

I will love without being afraid.

It makes you seem like a saint compared to me, doesn't it? Heh.

And so I offer you this piece of advice:


Don't go around destroying people's hearts just because you're unsure of your own feelings.