This isn't even a bloody letter. It's a warning.
Damn, son. Do you even understand what moving on is?
You don't get yourself involved in a fucking relationship when you're still saying shit like "-- will still be the one in my heart" or "-- will be the only one I love and I'm still waiting on her."
This has nothing to do with my feelings for you, because I'm completely finished with you... and it's not as if we were ever "together" it was a bloody one way thing and I had to pay for that stupid shit.
This has to do with all the people you're destroying. I can't help you... I can only watch you fall and learn from your own mistakes.
But at this moment, I'm just trying to point out something that you're so blind to. That you've been blind to for the past three years.
You've always had her in your heart, that's why nothing's worked out for you.
You must understand the rules of unrequited love.
It's "unrequited" for a reason.
Learn to move on... I understand it's not the easiest thing in the world to do, but it must be done.
Not for your own good... but for the good of the one you chose to be beside you at the moment.
Her.
I don't give a shit what happens to you right now... You should've learned already by now what and why you're getting yourself into this sort of shit.
You must learn what "moving on" is.
It doesn't mean "loving" someone on the side while you wait for that person to return your feelings.
You don't use other people to "kill time."
Remember what you did to me?
Don't you fucking dare do that to her. Not every one has the same pain threshold as I do. Not everyone can take the pain that you've made me swallow.
And from what I've seen... I don't think she can take it.
So think your feelings through before you let her deeper into this relationshit...
I honestly don't think you're ready.
When you go around saying things like "-- will be the only person in my heart" or "I await that one day -- will return my feelings."
Damn, son. This isn't some fucked up "experiment" as you call it.
She's a fucking human being with a heart. Hearts break.... and sometimes they never heal. It scars you with memories you can't ever forget.
Don't you fucking dare play around like that. It's making you look like such a hypocrite.
You're still caught up with someone who doesn't return your feelings and who may never do so.
The best thing to do is to kill those feelings... distance yourself from that person. From everything...
Think about what you truly want.
A miserable life where you're caught up with the past?
Or a new life with someone who loves you back...
It's your call.
If you're not ready to move on, then I don't think you deserve to have someone by your side right now.
Because you're just setting her up for disappointment. You're just going to break her heart.
She's just another game for you to play.
Don't half-ass this.
I'm telling you this not because I care about you or anything. I'm just sick and tired of watching you destroy people.
Somehow... most of the men... I mean boys that I encounter in my life turn out to be bloody players.
Better fix yourself before you break yourself.
If you can't survive this life alone, then you aren't ready for a relationship.
Think about it. Take it nice and slow... you've plenty of time to think it through.
Do us a favor... Save a few lives and hearts, y'know?
And here's a small bit that I never spoke about...
I didn't waste my two years solely waiting for you...I had people ask me out, offered me just for fun flings, offered to be friends with benefits. You weren't necessary for me to be complete. I didn't wait out of desperation. I felt the need to prove to myself that I could survive by myself. I wasn't afraid to be alone. I was alone all my life. Forget relationships, I didn't even have friends until high school. No one held me when I cried. I locked myself in the bathroom and cut away my emotions... punished myself for being so pathetic. I cried myself to sleep everyday, wishing for my heart to stop, wishing that I never wake up because I didn't want to face the hell the next day. I wanted to forget the past... the four years of torture at that damned place... I wanted to forget him... the one who stalked and sexually humiliated me. I wanted to destroy myself. I was unclean. I wanted to disappear. I wanted the pain to stop. But I realized that I was the only one who could make that pain disappear. I never gave up on life... I might've made a few regrettable mistakes on my way here, but that's what makes me stronger. If I gave up as easily as you did, I would've killed myself before I even made it into college.
Be strong. Move on... and live.
Damn, son. Do you even understand what moving on is?
You don't get yourself involved in a fucking relationship when you're still saying shit like "-- will still be the one in my heart" or "-- will be the only one I love and I'm still waiting on her."
This has nothing to do with my feelings for you, because I'm completely finished with you... and it's not as if we were ever "together" it was a bloody one way thing and I had to pay for that stupid shit.
This has to do with all the people you're destroying. I can't help you... I can only watch you fall and learn from your own mistakes.
But at this moment, I'm just trying to point out something that you're so blind to. That you've been blind to for the past three years.
You've always had her in your heart, that's why nothing's worked out for you.
You must understand the rules of unrequited love.
It's "unrequited" for a reason.
Learn to move on... I understand it's not the easiest thing in the world to do, but it must be done.
Not for your own good... but for the good of the one you chose to be beside you at the moment.
Her.
I don't give a shit what happens to you right now... You should've learned already by now what and why you're getting yourself into this sort of shit.
You must learn what "moving on" is.
It doesn't mean "loving" someone on the side while you wait for that person to return your feelings.
You don't use other people to "kill time."
Remember what you did to me?
Don't you fucking dare do that to her. Not every one has the same pain threshold as I do. Not everyone can take the pain that you've made me swallow.
And from what I've seen... I don't think she can take it.
So think your feelings through before you let her deeper into this relationshit...
I honestly don't think you're ready.
When you go around saying things like "-- will be the only person in my heart" or "I await that one day -- will return my feelings."
Damn, son. This isn't some fucked up "experiment" as you call it.
She's a fucking human being with a heart. Hearts break.... and sometimes they never heal. It scars you with memories you can't ever forget.
Don't you fucking dare play around like that. It's making you look like such a hypocrite.
You're still caught up with someone who doesn't return your feelings and who may never do so.
The best thing to do is to kill those feelings... distance yourself from that person. From everything...
Think about what you truly want.
A miserable life where you're caught up with the past?
Or a new life with someone who loves you back...
It's your call.
If you're not ready to move on, then I don't think you deserve to have someone by your side right now.
Because you're just setting her up for disappointment. You're just going to break her heart.
She's just another game for you to play.
Don't half-ass this.
I'm telling you this not because I care about you or anything. I'm just sick and tired of watching you destroy people.
Somehow... most of the men... I mean boys that I encounter in my life turn out to be bloody players.
Better fix yourself before you break yourself.
If you can't survive this life alone, then you aren't ready for a relationship.
Think about it. Take it nice and slow... you've plenty of time to think it through.
Do us a favor... Save a few lives and hearts, y'know?
And here's a small bit that I never spoke about...
I didn't waste my two years solely waiting for you...I had people ask me out, offered me just for fun flings, offered to be friends with benefits. You weren't necessary for me to be complete. I didn't wait out of desperation. I felt the need to prove to myself that I could survive by myself. I wasn't afraid to be alone. I was alone all my life. Forget relationships, I didn't even have friends until high school. No one held me when I cried. I locked myself in the bathroom and cut away my emotions... punished myself for being so pathetic. I cried myself to sleep everyday, wishing for my heart to stop, wishing that I never wake up because I didn't want to face the hell the next day. I wanted to forget the past... the four years of torture at that damned place... I wanted to forget him... the one who stalked and sexually humiliated me. I wanted to destroy myself. I was unclean. I wanted to disappear. I wanted the pain to stop. But I realized that I was the only one who could make that pain disappear. I never gave up on life... I might've made a few regrettable mistakes on my way here, but that's what makes me stronger. If I gave up as easily as you did, I would've killed myself before I even made it into college.
Be strong. Move on... and live.
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