Shit life makes me say #5

I really need to post here more. I stopped because I didn't want to blog anymore... I didn't want to come to terms with the fact that I still haven't fully fixed myself yet. That I still had the residual depression that I have yet to overcome.

Ultimately, I need to stop keeping all my emotions inside. They'll kill me one day, I swear. They'll be the death of me. So I must stop. I need to be open with myself to myself and those around me.

I had my first breakdown in a while and it was wretched. I need to face the past and get over it.

I need to understand that I'm not who I used to be anymore.

I'm not alone anymore.

I am stronger than I was.

I am a better person than I was,albeit I still have some kinks to work out.

I have people who care about me now.

I don't have to fight anymore.

I am free from those who have made my childhood a living hell.

I need a more positive outlook on life. I need to let the past go and stop being so afraid of what the future holds.

I only have one life, so I might as well make the best of it. Come what may, I'll take them on.

I need it to be so that I will learn to stop this self-loathing.

I'll overcome this... somehow. Some day. It's a work in progress.