#29

Dear--,

Okay. I lied. That wasn't the last letter.

So many things have changed these past months. Heh...

I'm not scared to say your name anymore. Memories of you and I no longer haunt me... though it still pains me at times. I'm not letting you shadow my life anymore. All the pain and bullshit you've dragged me through means nothing to me.

But... that doesn't mean that you mean nothing to me. Even though you shouldn't.

I don't know what to think about you anymore.

You've played with my heart and lead me on for so long... and dropped me like I meant nothing to you. But once I gave up chasing you and engaged into a relationship, you started showing interest in me, asking me to hangout and started talking to me again.

God... you're a heartless bastard.

What the fuck was I thinking? Why the hell couldn't you have saved me from this pain and told me it was just a fucking fling so I didn't develop expectations of pushing what we had further.

I've worked so hard to move on. Just let me live in peace with the life I have now.

I wish you'd keep ignoring me. The less we talk the less painful it'll be.

Let's just make both our presence and dialogue scarce.

Just like old fucking times when you'd leave me hanging. Remember? Because I do.

I don't even know anymore... What's done is done. And so we must deal with our respective consequences.

-ht.

Say goodbye now and mean it forever.
Got to move on and keep it together.
Forget the things that you've said and you've done.
That's in the past, here comes the sun.