Why does it feel like my only option is death at the moment?

shimatta

I dream of this future where I'm free of all current attachments.

Where I'm free of myself.

I await that one day when I can genuinely be happy. Where my smiles are not laced with pain. Where I no longer have to push myself to wear a mask.

I want to be free. I don't want to be in pain anymore.

I want to find my heart again, so I can love again.

I don't want to be loved... I want to love as well.

hanasanai de...

Is it worth the sacrifice.

Throwing away my past and paving a new future... in a completely new place.

A blank canvas.

Severing all ties... so that I may start over again.

Is this risk worth it?

Am I ready?

night.

What I want to do... and what I must do.

I need to reach a concensus.